fine line between desire and demand

a person who misses another is demanding approach

and when you are talking about wanting something, you should plan
away from that, sometimes we desire something
an event, or an item perhaps or anything
yet we simply don't know what exactly is it we want, demand and need
you feel the urge, and the impatience
and you lack the plan, the way, the key of the door, if you can find the door in the first place


as long as our ups are more than our downs, we are ok, just accept that ideal state is not achievable

do I teach myself, things in life that make it easier, to be more specific, livable??

I personally don't know, but if luck exists, then its distribution is not fair at all, and since when life was fair, we all go through the same classes in the school of life, but they just get held in different buildings

When I lose control on what I want and what I avoid, it gets very hard to rise back to the surface, but hey, the surface is not ideal

is it true that when the sun sets and we are alone, we feel lonley more
?
why does our lives that look good most of the time posses lonesome a lot but in indirect methods
i walked on the sidewalk under branches of tree dropping drops of rain, the rain had sound, but the it was white noise, i heared it but didn't feel it, i rushed my steps toward home that had nobody
i entered, once i got home, nobody's home
i kept own sunk in the ocean of notion, trying to figure out answers of unanswerable questions, most of them were whys
man doesn't find reasons of many events taking place around him and affecting him all time
so i know that what i have to care about is the controllable part
the answerable part
with a zest of luck, confidence, insist, dare, taking risks, and sacrificing chances, a person can get further than where s/he can imagine
that was the conclusion of that night, the night of heavy rain